Last updated on January 24th, 2024 at 05:05 pm
Many have wondered whether I dropped off the face of the writer’s planet … and I kinda did. I lost my drive to write when my grandmother passed in 2016. I have been trying so very hard to get it back, but most of me died the day she passed. It took me a long time to process all the loss in my life. My family and I aren’t close … there is no secret there. I try to keep from airing most of my differences, but I am finally beginning to feel myself again. I have done major changes in my diet, as well as completely restructuring my circles.
Everyday I feel just a little more normal … whatever normal is. I am starting to miss school again … starting to miss writing … starting to miss blogging … all the things that used to be “me” …
The first step I’m taking is getting my fingers on the keyboard again. I am not quite ready to dive in and pay for a domain just yet, but I am definitely ready to start building my site up. I think I finally have a direction I want to take my blog and I would love to see it be great again. However, I want to also restart my novels. I was becoming very close to a wonderful man and he made me feel again … he helped me remember that there was life and it was worth it. More importantly, however, he wanted to get me writing again. I lost this man on April 9, 2018. Honestly, I am still processing everything but the fact he wanted me to write again has stuck with me. I have been blessed in many ways this week … but getting the drive to write again has been the biggest blessing.
So, before I sign off of my blog and social world and dive into my writing … let me try to explain the direction I want to take this blog.
- Bring awareness to mental health – I have battled depression … I have battled anxiety … I have had suicide affect my life. This area is probably one of my biggest passions and one that I will be talking about often.
- Physical health journey – I think talking about my physical health needs is probably going to be the ONLY way I can remain on track with my needs. Talking about it makes me accountable for my life.
- Eventually … travel – It is STILL my goal to travel. I want so badly to jump in my car and drive. I love traveling by myself … but there are some places that I dream about traveling with someone else.
- POSSIBLY …. my art – I miss cross-stitching and I am working to get my house back into a place where I have a crafting area. It would be a dream to start cross-stitching again and talk about it on my blog.